Sunshine
17 Oct 2011 Leave a Comment
in Discussion Tags: balance, self-talk, spirit
It’s cold out but the sun is shining so I decide to brave the elements. As the sun dips behind a cloud I utter a plea, “Please don’t hide. Your light brings me such warmth.” I realize that I could easily say this to everyone in my life. I hear my Higher Self interrupt, “And?…” Yeah, I get it. And…I could say it to myself.
How many times had people expressed this exact sentiment to me? “You have such a lovely singing voice,” “Your paintings are great,” “Wow, this portrait of your kids is amazing! You drew this?”, “Mommy, why don’t you play piano anymore?” I get verklempt (emotionally inhibited in a convulsive way). It’s my kids who watch me most closely.
“Scare myself to death, that’s why I keep on running. Before I arrive, I can see myself coming.” ~ Feel by Robbie Williams
Why don’t I allow my soul to shine? I’m not an ego-maniac. I’m not even interested in fame. I just really enjoy doing this stuff, rather than the stuff my responsible self tells me to do, ”How old are you? Why are you playing with paints/musical instruments/paper and pencil? Grow the hell up!”
I have a flash of insight, “I’m taking a program for my personal growth that requires me to get in touch with my childhood.” I have to become a child in order to be a better functioning adult. Ha! Shows how little my ego knows!
The sun disappears behind a large cloud and I think, “The world just got a little colder.” Would the world be a little warmer if I came out from behind my fears?
